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" It’s funny how that happens— how we can manufacture something, like a fancy dinner date or vacation— and it can disappoint or even hurt in our memory, and then God will go and give you a beautiful moment in the worst time, or simply heal your memory in a way that makes you look back on a hard day and say, “I’ll never forget the way that person loved me.” "

So beautiful how God can turn something around just like that! Blessings to you and yours.

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You’re last paragraph! My goodness that really hit home for me. All my life I considered myself a “place person” too until I moved away from my life long home. I feel too that God is using motherhood to teach me the infinite value of being a people person. It reminds me of Lewis’s quote that we meet no mere mortals. To be a wife and the mother of little ones really does expand the heart infinitely and heals those old wounds of losing place. Thanks for sharing! 🫶🏻

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Oct 17Liked by Sarah W Rowell

Thank you for this beautiful meditation on the gifts our children are and could be to one another.

I just wrote last week on the question, So, are you done (having children?

I believe this is another reason to welcome the babies God sends.

God bless you and your young family.

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This is exquisite.

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"I can literally feel my heart growing, like the Grinch." Me, too, friend. Me, too.

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"[God will] simply heal your memory in a way that makes you look back on a hard day and say, 'I’ll never forget the way that person loved me.'” This is putting succinctly what I was trying to get at in a poem I wrote this past summer. Witnessing my dad live and die with Alzheimers for 15 years was hard days. But when I miss him, I look back and the intervening time seems to sift out the sweet moments from all the bitterness of those years.

"I only know that as a mind departs, it says goodbye

a bitter hard farewell, made sweet somehow

by the intervening years, a well

of fading memories, the longing of the heart now

for a shred of whatever used to be."

It and one other (which still needs to be written) are by far the most personal poems I (will) have ever put together. https://soundingoutthewonder.substack.com/p/hidden-in-the-hollow-of-his-blessed

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We really never feel God change us. We all of a sudden just notice that it's happened, like I did in the middle of reading the last paragraph of this.

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